full
empty

and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.


introduction
confession

zishing
04-12-1992
no preferences
nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
and that's about it.


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in

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Amos
Andy
Baka-Tsuki
Caroline
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Hisyam
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LeeYang
Kee
Leonard
LiJie
MarcusChan
Matilda
Max
MelWeh
RongRong
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Sarah
SiHui
Stewart
Sumo
Valerie
Zak


past
present

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dream
(Friday, August 27, 2010/3:32 PM)

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home

Mornië utúlië (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

May it be the shadows call
Will fly away
May it be you journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun

Mornië utúlië (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

A promise lives within you now


dreams that were.
dreams that are.
and dreams that will be.

does my heart really yearn for what it has never really experienced before?
if so, then the situation might just be right.

i'll just watch for awhile longer.
and hopefully.

hopefully something will happen.
something that i can only hope.

will bring pure joy and memory to my naïve heart.


end
(Wednesday, August 04, 2010/12:01 AM)

EDIT: and this was not it after all.
for i have found what really matters to me.
this time, no delusions.
for real.



here we go again.

from deep within.
the feelings that were once lost.

start to emerge once more.

back to clutch my heart,
or to haunt it.

i do not know yet.

i have changed.
i myself am fully aware.

but in the end the outcome might still be the same.

at least now,
my heart has hardened.

and i don't yearn for it as badly as i used to.


for the end of the beginning,
is merely the beginning of the end.

i will try and i will see.
should i fail or succeed.


i'll accept it either way.